Monday, February 27, 2006

nah... the tought of me being a university kid hasn't sunk in completely yet.

today was D day of me being an official university student.
i must say... it went pretty well.
finally made some friends...after failed attempts during orientations.
i just realized how screwed up my time table is...
shit happens... shit like having 3 hours break between classes and long days till 5.30pm.
but i'm cool with that.
with a worst time table i experienced in AUSMAT last year, this shall be 'peanuts'.

oh. there was this girl i met in Victoria University during one of my tutorials...
apparently she's from Tawau too.
Sabah Chinese School, my senior. *KAKI NANG!* (same people) haha!
what are the odds!?!
*grin*... things like this sometimes just brighten ups my day.
its as if like' hey, i'm not the only budak kampung around ' . SweeeEEt!!!

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Thursday, February 23, 2006
In a Bit of a Pickle

i just realized that how much my university life depends on the internet.

duh~!? research and extra information- you might say,
but no! not university work... university 'life'!

my assignments have to go through a software called 'turn it in'...
a software that can check any case of plagiarism.
every flippin assignment for every subjects ...
all needs to go through this 'ridiculously long process' system.

my lecture notes...
my course annoncements...
my assignmnents' due dates...
my assesments' dates...
are all stored in an 'electronice notice board' called the 'black board' online.

i thought it'll be the right time to ask my father's permission for getting a personal notebook.
a notebook that shall be loaded with all my work and junk ...
something that could give me the privacy i need too.


the respond i got was unexpected... i actually got none.
my dad most probably intentionally ignored my request.

it was a 'sms'... that's why my mom told me that a 'polite msg' is not good enough... suggesting me to talk with my dad man to man.

[self- sensitive and bitter]
never thought that i'd have to be a 'man' when requesting something from my parents.
justifying the reasons why i need a notebook now?...
hell no!
i rather get a 'straight No' then having them patronizing me as a kid not knowing what's best for myself and having to beg for something they rather not give me now.

so yea, guess i'll be saving to own my first ever notebook.

On 9:52 PM, Victor let go.
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Victoria University's Australian University Progromme have begun.
the 3 days orientation i experience was exactly how an orientation is supposed to be run...
boring speeches and pointless workshops.

the time slots for my subjects wasn't in my favour.
the 'breeze' of making new friends like i thought wasn't in my favour either.
nonetheless, i'm feeling optimistic about university still.

On 9:37 PM, Victor let go.
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Monday, February 20, 2006

1 day to go... my bumming 'streak' ends.
1 day to go... my 'uni' life begins.
1 day to go... finally i'll have a 'so called' life!

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Saturday, February 18, 2006

I can't get to sleep
I think about the implications
Of diving in too deep
And possibly the complications

Especially at night
I worry over situations
I know I'll be alright
Perhaps it's just imagination

Day after day it reappears
Night after night my heartbeat shows the fear
Ghosts appear and fade away

Alone between the sheets
Only brings exasperation
It's time to walk the streets
Smell the desperation

At least there's pretty lights
And though there's little variation
It nullifies the night from overkill

[Overkill by Colin Hay]

too many times we try to fix situations that concern us ...
and we end up doing more than we should.
whether it is being firm in our stand,wanting acceptance or just trying to make things right.

being a loner does not mean that i should shut myself out from the world and be alone forever... does it?

{moment of truth}
i have a crush on a girl ...
a girl who i barely know.
a girl who's older, much wiser and definitely not in my league.
a girl who's absence makes 'lonely' no longer okay for me.

that's overkill isn't it ?!

On 9:09 AM, Victor let go.
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Friday, February 17, 2006

i feel so numb. emotionless...
even boredom feels 'fake'.

i woke up rather late this morning ...
i felt a wierd sense of everything had passed me by,
not knowing of my existence.

guess it's just one of those days.

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my first time.

we felt cozy (just me and her inside the car)
we were excited. (we didn't know what to expect)

she was definately satisfied with the service. surprisingly.
it went really well. and it only cost RM 9.

it was both Nur'i and my first time being in car...
while it was being washed at ESSO.

i skipped both Christian Fellowship and Cell Group to chill with some friends.
[confession ends]

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Tuesday, February 14, 2006
valentine's day

flowers... chocolates... anyone?
... (moment of silence)

thats right. another lonely valentine's.

well, 'dateless' Valentine's actually;
not so much of a lonely one.
i went out to asia cafe with my 'single guys club' ... hehe.
i thought asia cafe would be filled with miserable lonely guys.
potential club members? haha!
However, the 'mood' for love was all around- the valentine's spirit was strong!
I know, Guys are cheap bustards if they'd brought their 'loved ones' to Asia Cafe for this special day.
But without a doubt, there plenty of couple's that night.
Flowers were selling like hot cakes...dang!
everyone was taking advantage over the commercialization of Valentine's.
i admire those guys that 'rebels against it'. (that's you kev)

[update ends]

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Sunday, February 12, 2006

enough with the entertainment world posts.
it's time to catch up on reality; my life.

i've been crying again.
crying over the pettiest matters.

ever been insulted by a stranger?
ever been judged by your leaders?
ever been disrespected for who you are?
ever been patronize by and an older person?

i have.
it was all the work of 1 person.

i cried when i had to justify how much this person hurt me.
i cried when i realized i was holding grudges all this while.
i cried when i had to explain myself. knowing it was time to forgive.
i cried because i had to be the bigger "man". (irony!)

it might not sound as difficult...
just because this person is not my best friend nor someone i am really close to.
BUT STILL, having a dick (someone i consider a stranger-still) insulting and disrespecting me without knowing me is flippin' idiotic and bloody unacceptable!

i might sound bitter now, but i am willing to forgive.
i just need time; time to release my anger & frustrations... and i'll be fine.

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Rachel McAdams

bye bye angelina jolie and jessica alba.
here comes the less sexy, less seductive Rachel McAdams!
big crush on her at the moment.

dang.. how bored can one be?!

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Saturday, February 11, 2006

hip hop... good music for killing time.
unlike indie (songs that appears in the background of one's mind when they found/ lost the love of their life)... thus, time stops. haha

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Wednesday, February 08, 2006

all that hype!... this show did not dissapoint my in any ways.
the actual reason i watched this show was because someone told me this movie brought tears to her eyes. I am a big sucker for Emo movies... hehe. But the action was even better...
best kung fu movie i'd seen in years!

On 8:49 AM, Victor let go.
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clive owen, denzel washington and jodie foster.
spring 2006. all 3 will star in 1 movie -' inside man'

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Tuesday, February 07, 2006

funny thought...
you know how we Malaysians often immitate the Australian's accent ...
especially this 1 line; " G'Day Mate! " or " Cheers Mate! ".

ever wondered what is the most immitated line by WesternErs?
maybe... "xie xie ni"
"namaste "
well, " me love you long time" seem to be used quite often in shows i've watched (family guy, 40 year old virgin and full metal jacket) haha!

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Monday, February 06, 2006

do enlarge the poster. it's deep and meaningful. the art actually explains the whole movie.

Junebug is an emotionally rich tale of a dysfunctional family in America's South, whose resentments and repressions come out with the entrance of an outsider.

Chicago gallery owner Madeline is newly wed to George. To close a business deal with an eccentric artist from the South, Madeline, accompanied by George, travels to the artist's North Carolina hometown. The pair decides to call in on George's family, where they face a mixed reception. The provincial parents and hopeless younger brother, Johnny, are pleased to see George but are unimpressed with the urbane Madeline. Meanwhile, Johnny's heavily pregnant wife, Ashley, is in awe of Madeline's sophistication.

Madeline is desperate to leave, but George - once only too keen to abandon his down-country roots - is seemingly enamoured with the innocence of his family, and questions where he belongs. As the characters struggle with the final claustrophobic days of Ashley's pregnancy, they discover that the art of loving is about accepting people for who they are.

darn, my bro sure is right. no art house title is ever related to the movie itself. haha!

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i came to realise that my life seriously involve the media...
bumming around while waiting for uni to start seriously don't make one think a whole lot.
so my emotions and thoughts mostly consist of global event and entertainment news. haha

example : Oprah keep me in touch with my sensitive side,
CNN makes me curious of what cartoons the Dennish published.
Brokeback mountain is a good movie. but not enough to make me enjoy gay shit though. haha!

so... what i am saying is... i am happy for Amy Adams.

she acted in 'catch me if you can' with Leonardo as a nerdy nurse. not the smartest gal...

then, she played OC's brian mckenzie's pregnant wife in 'Junebug'. another 'dumb girl' role...

poor thing. Fortunately, Amy Adams is nominated for numerous awards including the oscars for best supporting actress in 'Junebug' .

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Thursday, February 02, 2006

the greatest event i ever witnessed.
its one thing to see 4000 people in planet shakers... shaking the planet.
its another thing to see 400 people going delirious for delirious.

delirious? were performing for the Asian Youth Ambassador's Festival in Bukit Jalil Putra Stadium. sadly, it was no where near to a fully packed stadium turn out.

i was sitting in the 1st row. so pretty good view i guess. lol

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Wednesday, February 01, 2006

everything is connected.
sounds cool doesn't it... abit corny i guess.
the trailer of this show was fantastic... very dramatic and looked as though it could be a great thriller movie. from the same film makers of 'traffic' worr... wah seh~!!!
one of the movie i most anticipated this year ...

results : (abit) dissappointed.
it was overambitious and too complicated for me.
not 'how' the movie was made, but 'what' was going on in the scenes/ character's lives that ended up being 'Connected'... some connection was kinda vague!!!

(spoilers) : tell me. what does george clooney's character being tortured [nails being pulled out 1 by one] got to do with the suicide of 2 young pakistani men?!

i know i know. it was terribly digusting...however, george clooney being in such pain was the only exciting part in the whole show. Andrew and I went out of the cinema blur cases.

rotten tomatoes
give it 73% freshness. the negative comments are more accurate. hehe.

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