Sunday, December 31, 2006

Thank God i'm back from Thailand. now, that's a genuine praise!~

I came back 2 days ago...surprised by another tragedy; Taiwan's earthquake which screwed internet connections all over. Tragic!!! not the connection [i'm not that mean okay!] but rather the deaths and injuries occured.

Anyways, the Chiang Mai trip was amazing. Loved the weather as well as the food. That's about enough to make me happy. What more could you ask for? ow Right! i took a picture with a couple of Ah Kua(s) and resulted in an ankle injury [ damn uneven steps!] Even so, i enjoyed the entire trip.

I'm glad that 2006 is over. it was a year of excellence for me... achieving the impossible (for me), which was Above Average Results. However, i'm disgusted by how 06' ended.

Bangkok streets are bombed...Saddam's execution was on the Hajj itself...and Yet, we're celebrating?

07' ... we can even tell ourselves... "Big Freakin' Deal!"
no new year is going to end the retarded war or end poverty... but then again, we lived in a Fucked up world. I suppose we still rejoice and make the best out of it faith.

Blessed New year you people! i know i sound bitter but i'm not. i just wish... internet could be a little faster thats all. lol

On 8:41 AM, Victor let go.
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Thursday, December 21, 2006
christmas shopping

Shopping is not my thing.
Christmas shopping is out of the question.
but since my parents are here and they assist any financial complication, i tagged along experiencing the season of giving.

i've been spending alot of time in MPH (even thinking about being a member).
I discovered One Utama's MPH is the most comfortable MPH; having 2 floors as well as having alot more Christian materials. On the other hand, Mid Valley's MPH is huge having a large collection of business and commerce reads. and yea... A Lot of intellectual chics bumming at Mid Valley's MPH. * Borat's impersonation * " NiCe.. I LIKE!.." (2 thumbs up)

for my own Christmas wishlist...
a Dell Inspiron 640m notebook.
and acceptance letter from Monash.
a car..? we'll see.

i won't be here for Christmas. I'll be spending X'mas in Chiang Mai, Thailand. Lovely place it seems, wishing you readers (Probably people i love loadz... you guys should know)


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Tuesday, December 19, 2006

definition of 'miss' is...
to suffer from the lack of.

big word... 'Suffer'. Probably the reason why it hurts so badly at times.

i miss you.

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Saturday, December 16, 2006
easy silence

a distorted perception on how my friends view me as a significant figure still fool me time and time again.

i'll never go 'silent' on giving comforting words or being honest when i need to...
i take the time to listen and actually give a crap about my friend's happiness.

i see no reason going 'silent' on giving compliment to friends who deserves it...
i know what it takes to put a smile on their face...

on the other hand... i know now that it's rather simple going 'silent' on appreciating a friend...

who am i kiddin'. haven't done much to actually not deserve this 'easy silence'.

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Thursday, December 14, 2006
200th post

this picture is taken during City Harvest Church very own Thanksgiving night.

a night i'll remember as 'the night i became proud of becoming City Harvest'.

in this picture... my smile is just different from usual.
i do not normally show off my half dimples... in fact, i never.
but this time it was rather obvious. i like it.

Serene, Abel and Me in Black/pink

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Monday, December 11, 2006

listening to my self being so critical of my friends instead of appreciating them every moment i get...

i feel unworthy to be called a friend and fear of becoming a condescending prick.

before i know it, i'll become everything i ever hated. damn

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Saturday, December 09, 2006
sorry for not feeling guilty

when a friend is judged by the un-ending list of criteria a friend should have...
i admit i have no problems with guilt or what so ever being the judge at times.

this year, i've made friends with the most accepting and care free people one could ever asked for...
however, i've made zero friends that i could really connect with on a personal level.

these friends are great company. nothing more
they do not contribute to my spiritual growth
they have no ambitions, goals, visions and clueless with what they want in life

our conversations are often repetitive, depthless and empty. complete utter rubbish
i feel stupid because i need not put myself down to their level. i am somewhat at their level... only with the goal of reaching new heights.

if you're wondering how might my VU friends react after reading such a condescending post by me...
think again.
non of my friends i hung out with after a year gives a rat's ass whether i have a blog . the last thing on their minds would be what are going through mine and my personal issues.

thus, my justification (excuse) on my failure in bringing any peers to Christ...
as not one of them shown me the slightest sign of curiousity or interest in what i have faith in.

not much I can do if my peers do not give a shit whenever i feel the urgency to spread the truth.
should i just shut myself from my emotions? so that i would not feel grieved when i do not see them in heaven?

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Friday, December 08, 2006

was on my way to meet up a friend and i received a message from her; cancelling our plans 30 minutes before the time we agreed to meet.

yes. i would call it pretty last minute. but i've experienced worst.
yes. it happens to me alot.
my patience tends to wear thin by my friend's ability to disappoint.
so yea, things like these do fuck with my brain at times.

Casino Royale was the next best alternative i could think of - being in the cab after realizing that my day was fucked. At least the movie did not disappoint as my expectation for this movie was off the roof.

my favourite sceneS - whenever M got pissed
when Bond's ass got itchy.
(sad to say) whenever Eva Green had no lines.

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Thursday, December 07, 2006

Tell me, whats going on inside of me?
I despise my own behavior
This only serves to confirm my suspicions
That I'm still a man in need of a savior
(dc talk- in the light)

What will people think
When they hear that Im a jesus freak
What will people do when they find that its true
I dont really care if they label me a jesus freak
There aint no disguising the truth

People say Im strange, does it make me a stranger
That my best friend was born in a manger

(dc talk- Jesus freak)

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self - Leo Club event

let's set the record straight, i am a faithful interact club member.
but since Sunway nor Monash have Interact Club, Leo Club is the next best thing.

though i am not a member, Han Ting invited me to sunway lagoon and ignored my given hint of lack of interest, i agreed to participate after knowing that Richard, Esther and Pammy would be there. great bunch from Ausmat which i appreciate a whole lot.

Thought the BODs of Leo Club wasn't the friendliest people around, i had the pleasure of knowing a few new friends. Oh oh, i finally had the balls to try the 'Pirate Ship' ride. so, yea, faith conquer fear there. got extremely wet in the end. it was all good. a better experience than the last time i went, because i wore proper pants this time, didn't get warned of the 'potential danger' that could happened like the previous time. *smiles and thinks what's the worst that could happen if my zip did anything unexpected while i sit those rides *

just really ... i mean.. extremely sad that Pammy will be back in Melbourne U... Han Ting, Esther and Richard will all be leaving to Australia next year. this fucking sucks.
the few good reasons for me to transfer to Monash M'sia is ..
ah, fuck it. sucks to be me at the moment. ( well, i'm fine now, the future seems dark)

will be dreading the time i'll spend here (Monash M'sia) even more so as i'm required to retake 3 subjects after my transfer from Victoria University. anticipating a black parade on 2007.

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Monday, December 04, 2006

thanks to Astro Movies Package.
this unproductive - stretched holiday might not be as bad as i thought it would be...
well, at least i get to watch movies i shouldn't have missed in the first place.
i watched 3 classics already
Romeo and Juliet, The Postman and Enemy of the States.

For Romeo and Juliet, i was dumbfounded by the language they used.
they actually used Shakespear's Romeo and Juliet's Lingo word for word.
which was a little too strange for me at first, But Claire Danes changed all that.
it was worth it listening to them talking Olde- English jibberish.

The postman was another weird movie. which i found i could have done many other things in that 3 hours i spent watching this show. not too bad actually. brutal in some scenes~ nice!

Love Enemy of the state. but the cast were bloody wierd. Jack Black? Jamie Kennedy? and alot more comedians being part of the cast. funny...but i love it. everything about it. my 2nd time watching this actually.

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Sunday, December 03, 2006

contented. exactly what i've expected.
not often i can trully say "my effort paid off". it was worth it.
though i may not be the best among my peers, i guess i'm victorious in many ways.
the theme of this year for me is EXCELLENCE. i'm glad my results are able to justify it.

monash!~ here i come.

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Friday, December 01, 2006

when i was younger, i use to get the shit beaten out of me if i'd ever disrespected my dad's authority. so yea, i would stay out of trouble whenever i can... more importantly, i had discipline.
(something kids lack nowadays)

for now, i'm using 'this' as my excuse for being irritated by annoying kids so easily.
i feel like these kids should learn a lesson or two too. you know? if parent's are too afraid to punish or discipline their children...why not let me do it for them.
i would tell the parents "help me help you"!

On 6:42 PM, Victor let go.
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