Wednesday, January 31, 2007
mixed feelings

I've just submitted my 'course withdrawal' forms to Sunway University College and Victoria University. It feels weird not being a student of Sunway anymore. feels... sucky.

Tuesday, January 30, 2007
joy

the best thing that could ever happen to a Christian guy is to receive a word from God.
i've learnt that once a person receives the word, nothing else matter. that person is to obey that word and have faith to fulfill that purpose.

i got that word.

"Proverbs 16

1 The preparations of the heart belong to man,
But the answer of the tongue is from the LORD.
2 All the ways of a man are pure in his own eyes,
But the LORD weighs the spirits.
3 Commit your works to the LORD,
And your thoughts will be established.
4 The LORD has made all for Himself,
Yes, even the wicked for the day of doom.
5 Everyone proud in heart is an abomination to the LORD;
Though they join forces,[a] none will go unpunished.
6 In mercy and truth
Atonement is provided for iniquity;
And by the fear of the LORD one departs from evil.
7 When a man’s ways please the LORD,
He makes even his enemies to be at peace with him.
8 Better is a little with righteousness,
Than vast revenues without justice.
9 A man’s heart plans his way,
But the LORD directs his steps."


The next best thing? a brother or sister in Christ asking to pray for you. yep, it happened to me!

Susanna(my ex Christian Fellowship President) and I had a conversation in University today.
We talked about ...mainly my problems and the uncertainties i was going to face. and after all my rantings, she asked me whether she could pray for me.

was indeed a pleasant surprise. I was actually more overwhelmed by it. I guess i really needed that 'someone' to be there for me when i needed him/her the most.

Sunday, January 28, 2007
self

some how i feel like i'm not yet a Monash student.
i am. but for me, not officially... yet.
that's because i haven't handed in my 'course withdrawal form' to Victoria University. that makes me a VU slash Monash student... hm, sounds as if i am being unfaithful to Monash.

there will be some advice session in Monash on Wednesday which i'll have to enroll in my majors and allocate my classes. only then, I'll accept that I'm truly a Monash kid.

currently I'm having second thoughts about my majors. I'm thinking of taking economics as one of my major instead of management.

anyways... I'm really excited about driving again. breakthrough this year. the year i conquer my fear of settling car damages and payments with another party.

I'm thinking of getting a Kenari. its easy to park, spacious for the driver, and economic on the fuel. it may not be "easy on the eye" but it will certainly be "easier on the pocket".
however, my friend suggest that i get it after Chinese New Year where prices are presumed to be lower. well, it better be or else its another delay for me. can't wait to annoy every driver out there.

Thursday, January 25, 2007
self

damn.
fuck.
worst break...ever.

Sunday, January 21, 2007
self

Friday, January 19, 2007
self

its one thing to be judged. its another thing being 'corrected' by one who thinks he/she knows what is 'best' for me.

i appreciate constructive criticism and all...i really do.
in my expressions at least ... even though it's mostly bullshit- in my opinion.

i was offended by someone younger calling me immature and thought that i should be more 'manly'. i really thought it was harsh especially the reason for my unmanliness was because i wasn't a gentlemen, i was not participative and unenthusiastic?

What the...bloody...hell was that supposed to mean? is that how men are defined these days? Pussy! i understand that statement for me not being 'man' enough because i may not be the most responsible person nor someone with a whole lot of integrity.

but, i take words spoken into my life seriously. don't be fucking with me trying to make a point without the right words.

I'm a teachable person. oh yes... not that hard to believe. i just need to be peached by a teacher or a leader whom i actually respect by first deserving it.

I've always been a loner. what fucking enthusiasm am i obliged to express? stereotype me next time. it saves time. picture a big ' L ' on my forehead. see if i cared.

support and encouragement... the hardest thing to gain when i need it the most.

Monday, January 15, 2007
self

Proverbs 16

1 To man belong the plans of the heart,
but from the LORD comes the reply of the tongue.

2 All a man's ways seem innocent to him,
but motives are weighed by the LORD.

3 Commit to the LORD whatever you do,
and your plans will succeed.

4 The LORD works out everything for his own ends—
even the wicked for a day of disaster.

5 The LORD detests all the proud of heart.
Be sure of this: They will not go unpunished.

6 Through love and faithfulness sin is atoned for;
through the fear of the LORD a man avoids evil.

7 When a man's ways are pleasing to the LORD,
he makes even his enemies live at peace with him.

8 Better a little with righteousness
than much gain with injustice.

9 In his heart a man plans his course,
but the LORD determines his steps.


as the new year moves along ever so quickly, a new word keeps capturing my attention.
proverbs 16. in 07' , i plan to do so much... it literally takes miracles to achieve it.

i plan to serve in church (cafe ministry)
i plan to drive ( thinking about a Kenari)
i plan to keep fit ( i'm a member of California Fitness)
i plan to do well in Monash (yes, i'm officially a Monash student)

with courage and faith, this year is the year i'll be a young adult...who will have the confident he never had... who will look great for the first time in his life... who will feel significant in other's eyes.

Monday, January 08, 2007
Life in Tawau

life has been good. could be better. but i'm not complaining.

staying in a new house in Tawau is just what i wanted. an escape from everyone.
i'm not popular in Tawau. believe me. coming back my hometown make no difference to my school mates or classmates even if they knew it. (even if they knew, i can't seem to be bothered)my escape is equilavent as a place which will take my mind off of everything surrounding me.

as i invest in people, i realize i did a pretty descent job in making friends with people who have aims in life. Hence, most of them have left Tawau to a better place (not heaven) to further their studies.

i believe Tawau offers nothing to me. not even proper electricity. ( i know this make Tawau sound even more 'kampung' like)...but screw it. the electricity problem does annoy the hell out of me.

can't survive here unless i do timber.

Monday, January 01, 2007
new year, new toy

Fujitsu LifeBook A3110 [White Edition]

hey, don't call me a Mac WannaOwn alright! i like white and it's something refreshing; to actually see a white Notebook running on Windows. anyways, dad was feeling generous and i got ' it's either now or never' feeling.

so yea, Victory! jokes. i feel demanding at first... but with Dad not being hesitant at all, i'm gonna be appreciative of it.