Tuesday, May 27, 2008
about a girl

How I wish you could see the potential,
the potential of you and me.
It's like a book elegantly bound but,
in a language that you can't read. Just yet.

You gotta spend some time, Love.
You gotta spend some time with me.
And I know that you'll find, love
I will possess your heart.
You gotta spend some time, Love.
You gotta spend some time with me.
And I know that you'll find, love
I will possess your heart.

There are days when outside your window
I see my reflection as I slowly pass,
and I long for this mirrored perspective
when we'll be lovers, lovers at last.

"I will possess your heart" by Death Cab for Cutie.

Wednesday, May 21, 2008
Retreat

droved up to Frasier's Hill last weekend for Shirley's sub-zone leaders' retreat.
first things first, thank God for journey mercy. despite the 'infinite' winding roads, we reached without anyone feeling too unwell. it's a milestone for me as well having first time participated in a 'convoy' or actually driving in any other long distance road trip.

Got to meet most of shirley's subzone's cell leaders as well as interns. i feel left out to be part of that group... to be mentioned at the same breathe with Shirley, its my honor as i was never under her nor have yet to speak with her before this retreat.

This is my 2nd trip to Frasier's Hill in a month as i just went there with some of my LEO club members. However, This time around... something in me just tells me that i couldn't miss out on the trip. Compared to a simple bbq and 'ghost stories' session after dinner from my previous trip,I expected God's touch and a time of refreshing from this..this had to be more 'purposeful'.

the retreat was awesome. Overwhelmed with the time spent with God and overjoyed with the new people i got to spend time with... it was really great. i'm actually lost for words at the moment...but i'm no longer emo- at least for now. :)

some pics maybe?

God is enough

from the Seeker bible study ( bible study with my Christian fellowship)
John 20:1-31 basically talks about the end of doubt;
Jesus' whole ministry and purpose on earth was in doubt and seemed like a lost cause after his death. However, He returned and gave peace to His disciples. Moreover, His resurrection meant that we now have a direct relationship with him and more importantly with our Father (v17).

John20:30-31 emphasized on the 2 main characteristics of a true disciples.

30Jesus did many other miraculous signs in the presence of his disciples, which are not recorded in this book. 31But these are written that you may^[a] believe that Jesus is the Christ, the Son of God, and that by believing you may have life in his name.

believing is not enough...
having life in his name means having Eternal Life...
Eternal life doesn't begin at the end of one's life, it starts the second you give your life to Him and Eternal life means knowing Him. Hence, having a relationship with him.

just something to share...
feels great to be know Him and to be known by Him.

Sunday, May 04, 2008
self

it does seem like i was on hiatus for awhile now, lack of updates are probably due to my hectic and unhealthy lifestyle. Besides, whatever i'm going through at the moment is beyond my understanding. no point going into deep thoughts...

recently, i find any justification of anything in any circumstances to be utter bullocks.
i missed cell group because i fear that i would not have enough time to finish my LEO club's task, but i justified my absence by being 'busy' and having to stay back late in uni as well as staying up late to do what i HAD to do. so yea, i CHOSE to miss cell group to do what i HAD to do. biggest mistake ever.

just the other day, i was trying to make up my mind on to whether to go for my 9am replacement class, help out my friend in a foosball tournament and going to church for Pastor Kong Hee's service. Guess what, i actually decided to help out my friend in that ridiculous game.
Luckily Gladys (cell member) put some senses into my head and straight out told me "you're missing church for -that-?!" ...

on my way to Asia Cafe, Yasir (another friend that have decided to help out in that event) told me " you're gonna skip class for -this-!?" ...

damn! what was i thinking!? i hate foosball... and i hate class! haha, no...but it was a class that i would actually end up staying in bed anyways. hence, i went church.

Justification? because i WANTED to! simple eh?

CURRENTLY, dealing with friends who are desperate to go church but not desperate to know God. i'm taking it as a ministry. i have to. God knows what i'll say to the person who's willing to miss church just because i insisted that we should go earlier to get better seats. God knows how i'll even respond the next time when she comes to me for advice or even council regarding her so called faith. i don't need this. God help me. she actually remind me of old-self...
this-is-bad.