Saturday, July 28, 2007
i'm such a bitch

the title speaks for itself. sometimes i get so frustrated with situations i get myself into i become bitter. damn it, feel like kicking a puppy now!

*sigh*
on life at the moment.
well, i've been really busy with clubs and societies activities that i'm beginning to not know what my priorities are.

i bumped into Angela in Sunway Pyramid just yesterday. Thank God for such a coincidence to happen. she'll be on her way back to Melbourne tomorrow. and yeah, caught up with her along with our fellow schoolmates in ss15's Nasi Kandar including Andrew, Brian, Natalia and some others.

had drinking session with the VU gang after that till 3am.
woke up early to help out the LEO club monash's installation from 9am which ended approximately 4pm. i'm drained. i really am.

well, i'm currently riding on a guilt ride because i've been involved in activities that my church strongly discourages and as a Christian Fellowship KG leader, i'm actually not allowed to do it.
i guess i really lost my focus this past few weeks.

there's a certain extent of fluctuations one's faith can go. but the ups and downs i'm facing is borderline madness. one day i can be on fire for Him, another day i'm doubting the existence of my faith.

this sucks. i don't want my faith to be influenced by any man made hype.
i do not want to know that my passion for the word and for His name is only temporary.
i'm in the persuit of happiness in Him.
just by being in his presence. having the peace knowing of His grace and faithfulness.
actually caring about the simple things that matters most to Him.